So it's been 18 months and 4 days since lucie was born, when people say times a healer well that's the biggest lie ever told, it doesn't get easier life just keeps going and somehow you learn to put a smile on and act normal whilst still dealing with all this hurt and emotion. On 23rd of April 2013 lucies wee brother Kayden was brought into this world at 38weeks, he is healthy and doing great and I thank god every day for giving me a healthy child, but then I'm so angry at him for taking my first how can you be so angry but so thankful at the same time, not a day goes by when I don't think of lucie and look at Kayden and wonder what lucie would have looked like at his age. I will always hold lucies heart in my heart and her memories are treasured everyday no one deserves to loose a child I know 18 months later every day still kills me, my first baby my only daughter my little angle miss you so much beautiful love you forever and ever from mummy xxxxxxx